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Annoy me. I love code. I got into working on web sites because of code. When HTML started to bore me, I was fortunate to need to learn JavaScript, Perl, CSS, PHP, XML, and another coding languages.

I get it. There are people who are scared of code.

Those people underestimate themselves. I’ve taught scared kids how to work with WYSIWYG and HTML and CSS for their first jobs. And WordPress is easy enough and cheaper.


Not the only one

I often see people start with “I think I’m the only person I know who’s…”

No, you are not.

Do people who write this really think they are? Or are they fishing for validation by getting other people who have done the same thing to say they do it too?


My Geek Hoarder aesthetic puts me in love with gadgets, but I also tend not to throw anything away.

  • If I am not sure what it is? Keep it. Eventually I will remember and feel disappointed in not having it later.
  • Have I not used it recently? Keep it. One has tools so one can do things and not have to go acquire them anytime one needs them. My idea of a tool includes what others might deem a toy.
  • If I like the one, then I should get 2-5 more”just in case” the first one breaks or in the case of battery packs, I cannot get to a wall or car outlet.


I tend to sit on newsworthy things. Like, I know people who post photos when they buy a house. Me? I updated the people to which I had discussed it. But, in general it was a topic I avoided making a topic. And, I became annoyed with people who expanded the circle of people who knew.

Part of it, is privacy. I avoid telling people where I live other than generalities unless they need to know. And they ask.

The larger part is wanting to avoid jinxing it. I really did not want to tell people I was going through the process only to be denied. Or something else to happen that made it not happen. I would attribute the failure to having bragged about it before it was real.

I was in a similar mindset about my current job and the prior job to move here. Our positions have a six month probation period where we can fire new hires for any reason, so I felt for almost a year that either I would not get the job or the offer would be rescinded or they would fire me.



It was recently my girlfriend’s birthday. I often wonder why she hasn’t left. Maybe she’s too stubborn. Then I think maybe it is learned helplessness or something similar Stockholm syndrome or overproduction of oxytocin. But when I ask her, she say’s she’s still here because she loves me. That is ridiculously amazing to me. And a great relief. Because I love her too.

Firefly Fluxx

via Daily Prompt: Shine

Firefly Fluxx

Played Firefly Fluxx (Shiny!) last night with the Blumenshines. I enjoy Fluxx. Having so many references to a show I can watch over and over and over and over and over and over enhances the experience to me.

That said, it dawned on me that this version of the game is more fun for those us who love the show than not. My first exposure to Fluxx was the Adventure Time Fluxx one. I know of the show and have watched parts of some episodes. But, I was only impressed with the game mechanics. I got Star Fluxx because it seemed more up my alley. The right kind of allusions with the mechanics

Interestingly enough, Board Game Geek rates it the highest of the games. I wonder if this is because the cards are powerful aka scarier?

I also want these:


LEGOs Have A Language Too

Was listening to an interview and following along until he lost me. He cooks and was talking about how food has a language. And staying within the dialogue of food, it works. When people try to mix random things it is like LEGOs.

That is where I got lost. It seemed like he stopped speaking English.

After hours of thinking about this, I think he means that incompetent chefs puts random ingredients together that create a clusterfuck of a dish. What makes no sense is that an incompetent builder puts random blocks together to create a clusterfuck of a machine.

A builder needs to understand LEGOs have a language the same as food. Work within that language with either food or LEGOs to make wonderful things.

Costly Signalling Theory

We use signalling to give people the impression of who we are. Think of the peacock growing the massive tail to signal to the peahen that he is not only healthy but has access to the best food and free of predators to grow it.

To clarify, only individuals who are elevated in status have usually acquired the capacity, resources, money, time, and influence to behave altruistically. Only wealthy people, for example, can afford to donate large sums of money. Thus, if someone behaves altruistically, this person is perceived as elevated in status. This person is more likely to be respected and even trusted.

That expensive car and house putting someone in debt up to their ears? It is signalling that he made a bunch of money. Potential investors are looking for whether or the people involved are successful. These outward signs can only help.

The same signalling with altruism struck me as interesting. Naturally it fits the idea. By throwing money at a cause, one signals that would has lots of money to give away on stuff like that. It strikes me as funny because the Trump Foundation gave to causes with other people’s money. It signalled Donald Trump’s ability to give away money only it was money from other people. Knowing the truth about the source suggests maybe his money was so tied up in real estate he could not do it on his own. And suggests perhaps he does not have the vast wealth he portrays.

Walter White Depression

Bryan Cranston on his character Breaking Bad Walter White’s emotional state.

I related to this man — I knew men like him who missed opportunities in their lives, but still became functioning, still loving to their family, still paying their bills, but there’s something that died in [their] interior. They’re putting one step in front of the other, they’re in deep depression.

In doing some of the research, I found that — in broad strokes — when people are in deep depression, there are two basic ways it manifests: Either externally or internally.

That was Walter White — he went into a shell. He didn’t care about his looks, he didn’t care about his weight, he didn’t care about his clothes. Nothing mattered to him. He was invisible to himself and the world. This ironic diagnosis of terminal cancer was his get-out-of-jail-free card. It exploded his emotions … Even if it’s just for a short period of time, those last two years of his life were full and exciting, and I don’t think he would have traded it.

This is me. I pull back from everyone into a shell. I am so introspective that my life starts to fall apart. In this state the wrong thing can provoke me into very bad responses. Feeling like I commiserated with Walt is the main reason I enjoyed the show.

More on Bryan acting as Walt in Fresh Air interview also references the shell.

CRANSTON: No, but, you know, listening to that [“I am the danger scene”] again is just a testament to the writing staff of “Breaking Bad,” led by Vince Gilligan. And in that one scene you have two opposing viewpoints that are equally valid from their point of view. Skyler is worried about her family. She makes a very pragmatic pitch: just confess, stop it now, don’t do this, you’re going to put yourself and us in danger.

But Walt by then is too far along in his journey. His ego has been opened, and he is fully realizing his sense of power, and he likes it, and he is not about to, you know, go back into the shell that he originally came out of. And he’s taking her comments as demeaning, as pejorative, that you’re not who you say you are, you’re not a powerful person, you’re a little schoolteacher, just go back to that.

And all I’m hearing is you’re not a man, you’re not this powerful, great Wizard of Oz behind the curtain. You’re just Walter White, this little man. And he’s so far beyond that at that moment, he now has to express himself with his full range of hubris, and that’s what comes out.

Spending Time Alone

Smart people need more time alone, according to this study:

The study found that more intelligent people actually had lower life satisfaction the more frequently they socialised with friends – spending time with friends actually made them unhappy. But the researchers discovered that these highly intelligent participants actually spent more time socialising with friends.

The lower life satisfaction the more time I spend with friends is true for me. I have to intentionally limit it. Do not get me wrong, I do spend some time around friends. Over the years I discovered my limitations to be about 4-6 hours a week depending on other factors. At times I have pushed it, but in the end I lashed out at friends to the point of losing friendships.

If I spend too little time socializing with friends, then I start to feel lonely. That too little can be 2-4 hours  a week.

Essentially, I have to read my energy levels and understand how I am feeling to accordingly adjust how much time I spend with others.

Spending time alone does not bother me. I use the time to read a book or read articles. I rather enjoy the interactions of Facebook.